“Ani maamin b’emuna sh’leima shehaborei yisbarach shemo hu borei umanhig l’chal hab’ruim v’hu l’vado asah oseh v’yaaseh l’chal hamaasim.”
what do those words mean to you? what they should mean, if the dont already, is that God is the creator and overseer of everything. kind of embodies the point of judaism…but your point is an important point to be addressed as it is a common misconception.
many people, from the religious to the irreligious and everything in between has some weird idea that by accepting ol malchus shamayim in theory, they are somehow entitled to everything that they want. it doesnt quite work like that. judaism isnt a benefit club where you pay membership for good deals once a month, identifying as a religious jew doesnt make your or life perfect simply as a result of that identification. its a lifelong process.
someone who asks a question like you asked is clearly lacking in emuna because the question is not like a tefillah where we ask hashem to give us what is best or us, its more of compalaint like “ok…im wearing the velvet on my head, not flipping lights on saturday…wheres my lightning bolt” or “HEY! GOD! WHATS THE HOLDUP!” the alternative being “assuming i get what i want ill believe, assuming i dont im splitting”
and im not judging…emuna and bitachon are lifelong challenges, but the way you’re approaching the problem is a bit off.