Maybe you should remove the word “maybe” from this thread’s title and you’ll be on your way to fixing the issue.
It was pretty evident when you recently “joked” about someone burying her husband, and you are not at all a mean person.
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Hashem has His own time frame for you, and when you accept that your spouse’s apparent delay is in your best interest, the jealousy will disappear be”H.
At that time we all here will celebrate with you be”H.