The reason people clobber you in comments for your questions (although they seem to be treating you gently this time) is not because you are asking questions, but rather how and where you ask them.
This is the fourth time in as many years that you have come asking a question in this very public forum, and phrased your question in a manner that seems to invite others to question.
It’s entirely plausible that you are being genuine, but the CR has a habit of calling out those who seem to be trolling or proselytizing.
You complain that your Rabbi talks about Emunah and that you still don’t feel safe.
Please go talk to him.