@None2.0
Please understand that I say this without any judgmentalism, but with compassionate sadness.
You clearly did not develop a healthy and proper understanding about Judaism, Torah, Mitzvos, Halacha, and their underlying principles. I don’t know whose fault that is, but the fact of it remains the same regardless of who is to blame.
All of the questions, complaints, problems with Torah Judaism (which is the only Judaism) that you raise in your posts are clearly answered and explained, in a clear and rationalist way that requires no leaps of faith, by Rav Shamshon Rafael Hirsch.
If you have an open mind and are willing to put in the time and effort to grow, I recommend that you read his works, starting with the Nineteen Letters.
May Hashem, in His infinite mercy, open the gates of wisdom for you.