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“Imagine if David hamelech got up for shachris and was a conformist you think he would have had the connection he has to G-d to write tehilim.”
He certainly did get up for shacharis! Look what he wrote in his tehillim: ?????????? ?????????? ?????????? ????????????????? ????????????!
“Please listen to G-d He created us and knows how he designed his creation and how much you truly _can_ handle”
Yes, and he gave us a really handy Owner’s manual for how to operate and maintain humans, particularly Jewish humans. That’s called the Torah.
“Maybe avram maybe that’s not your tafkid maybe the reason you need to be bribed to to learn is the same way you need to be bribed to go to school everyone hates school. And learning maybe it’s not something you enjoy. Maybe find something more in line with _your_ truth to focus on.”
I’ll be blunt. This is just straight up hedonism cloaked in feely goody spiritual mumbo jumbo. What I want when my alarm clock goes off in the morning is to sleep in more, so that must be right. I’ll just tell my boss that my personal truth was I couldn’t handle getting up this morning. I love fried foods, cookies, and ice cream, so Hashem must want me to eat them. I want to hang around and rest and not be bothered, that’s my tafkid! My pajamas are way more comfortable than my clothes, so maybe G-d wants me to wear them all day. If I used what I “want” to do in the moment as my life guide, I’ll end up as a 700lb blob living alone with no purpose in life, no self respect, and no happiness. At least there’d be french fries and cookie dough! Well, until my money runs out. My neshama loves to learn Torah, it’s my body that sometimes has to be motivated. And sometimes it’s not my body, but a lack of perspective, or a lack of organization that holds me back.
You’re telling me to know myself and my needs and wants, yadda yadda. I want to be a good Jew. I want to be an eved Hashem. I want to be a ben Torah. That’s my true self. And I don’t intrinsically know how to do those things – I need help! And what I want in the moment is not any kind of guide. Not feeling like it in the morning? That’s not my true self, that’s me not getting enough sleep the night before. Getting angry at the guy who cut me off in traffic, and letting that negativity be an undercurrent for the rest of the morning? That’s not my true self, that’s a lack of perspective. Getting to shacharis when the tzibbur is in shemoneh esrei and grumbling about my kids losing their shoes, refusing to get dressed, etc? That’s a lack of organization. You need to ask yourself who’s driving the bus.